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tempestuously) wrote2009-03-19 05:45 pm
tempestuously) wrote2009-03-19 05:45 pm
"I laugh because it's just so funny"
It is Geass rant time. I've been good these past few months so I think I'm entitled to one. Besides, these things help me clear my head.
So I appear to be having a crisis of faith. I continue to love the fan side of Geass (fanfiction/fanart and the like). I have some writers/fics that I happily wait for updates and discuss fangirlishly. And while my RP-life with him fluctuates between "OH GOD YOU'RE DOING IT WRONG YOU'RE NOT EVEN PLAYING LELOUCH ANYMORE" and "Hey I'm really loving this thread and feeling awesome!", I still overall love my crazy boy. Though I do have occasional bouts of worrying whether I have out-played Lelouch in this scenario and should just let him go. Then again, RP is about self-indulgence and I should be able to do whatever the hell I want as far as holding onto a character. I do pout that I can no longer bring out the super conniving side because there is honestly no reason. But I can still poke at the manipulative/liar/can't-be-straight-with-someone-to-save-his-life aspects just fine.
No, my crisis is with canon. Canon seriously pisses me off and continues to do so. I have yet to purchase the limited edition for the third box set, even though I still want to. Almost all of the sound files and the PDs aggravate me and aside from the initial two and the harem one, I have yet to watch any. Rolo, in general, infuriates me because I believe attention to him could be better spent on characters that matter. This goes the same with Xing Ke and to an extent, even Anya and Gino. I will be more tolerant of Gino because the poor boy got screwed by the writers, and that's just not fair. Rolo continues to be treated like a saint, despite his plot. Hello, he did kill someone in cold blood! Someone who's only crime was loving a psycho. But naaaah we're just going to smooth right over that; he's cute. And though I know it's just Clamp's preference, seeing him on the final Japanese box set annoys the hell out of me. Because I know Kallen STILL hasn't gotten any cover time. My reactions to official art also fluctuate, enjoying the Pash picture for the "aww" but also resenting it for the complete dismissal of canon fact. At least the final DVD art is truthful, even if it's depressing.
While I used to leap at the chance to discuss the intricacies of canon, I'm now mostly convinced they pulled half of it out of their ass beyond S1 and ignored gaping plot wholes in favor of contrivances. Yeah, my hatred is focused on R2, as S1 is still a masterpiece as far as I'm concerned. ZR remains my pendulum, as the idea fascinates me but the extraordinary leaps and shortcuts and forced writing the creators used to get there leaves a sour taste in my mouth, as does the final result since I still hate acknowledging Lelouch's death. This borderline reaction to canon causes my interest in it to experience the same highs and lows typically seen in manic patients, meaning I can be totally excited one minute and then want nothing to do with it with the simple shift of a topic. Even tried and trued favored elements of canon are no guarantee. I can get just as disillusioned discussing my stupid boys, as I can discussing Schneizel (note, I don't really like Schneizel. Like at all. It's not his fault, but that's how the cookie crumbles.) When once I could essay endlessly on characters, I am now tired of justifying canon's laziness. The novels are a saving grace because at least they allow me to explore some interesting ideas. But their questionable tie-in to canon makes them a feeble hold on my imagination at best.
I guess in the grand scheme of things, my reaction would be significantly tempered without the RP element. But it is damn difficult to have the final form of your character be INFINITELY AND DRASTICALLY different than when you started playing him and having to realize that someone who had incredible zeal for life now is now wracked with self-guilt to the point where self-punishment seems the true answer. I won't even go into the utter selfishness of that. That lovely tidbit from canon still sticks in my craw. Oh there's a selflessness element to, but the offset is still grr-inducing. Bleh, I mostly wish canon would give me just one last thing I can be proud of having attached to the Geass name. I do not have high hopes for the final PD. And I'm still irked as hell that canon forces me to choose between my "love of the story/power of the story" and "DAMMIT I WANT MY LELOUCH IT ISN'T FAIR." You are so not worth my frustration, Geass, you know that. So not worth it. But the characters remain canon's proverbial "I'm sorry. I can change. I won't hit you again" so I just can't file those damn papers, even though I know sooner or later, I'm just going to get another black eye. Worst relationship ever. :\ I have learned nothing from X.
So I appear to be having a crisis of faith. I continue to love the fan side of Geass (fanfiction/fanart and the like). I have some writers/fics that I happily wait for updates and discuss fangirlishly. And while my RP-life with him fluctuates between "OH GOD YOU'RE DOING IT WRONG YOU'RE NOT EVEN PLAYING LELOUCH ANYMORE" and "Hey I'm really loving this thread and feeling awesome!", I still overall love my crazy boy. Though I do have occasional bouts of worrying whether I have out-played Lelouch in this scenario and should just let him go. Then again, RP is about self-indulgence and I should be able to do whatever the hell I want as far as holding onto a character. I do pout that I can no longer bring out the super conniving side because there is honestly no reason. But I can still poke at the manipulative/liar/can't-be-straight-with-someone-to-save-his-life aspects just fine.
No, my crisis is with canon. Canon seriously pisses me off and continues to do so. I have yet to purchase the limited edition for the third box set, even though I still want to. Almost all of the sound files and the PDs aggravate me and aside from the initial two and the harem one, I have yet to watch any. Rolo, in general, infuriates me because I believe attention to him could be better spent on characters that matter. This goes the same with Xing Ke and to an extent, even Anya and Gino. I will be more tolerant of Gino because the poor boy got screwed by the writers, and that's just not fair. Rolo continues to be treated like a saint, despite his plot. Hello, he did kill someone in cold blood! Someone who's only crime was loving a psycho. But naaaah we're just going to smooth right over that; he's cute. And though I know it's just Clamp's preference, seeing him on the final Japanese box set annoys the hell out of me. Because I know Kallen STILL hasn't gotten any cover time. My reactions to official art also fluctuate, enjoying the Pash picture for the "aww" but also resenting it for the complete dismissal of canon fact. At least the final DVD art is truthful, even if it's depressing.
While I used to leap at the chance to discuss the intricacies of canon, I'm now mostly convinced they pulled half of it out of their ass beyond S1 and ignored gaping plot wholes in favor of contrivances. Yeah, my hatred is focused on R2, as S1 is still a masterpiece as far as I'm concerned. ZR remains my pendulum, as the idea fascinates me but the extraordinary leaps and shortcuts and forced writing the creators used to get there leaves a sour taste in my mouth, as does the final result since I still hate acknowledging Lelouch's death. This borderline reaction to canon causes my interest in it to experience the same highs and lows typically seen in manic patients, meaning I can be totally excited one minute and then want nothing to do with it with the simple shift of a topic. Even tried and trued favored elements of canon are no guarantee. I can get just as disillusioned discussing my stupid boys, as I can discussing Schneizel (note, I don't really like Schneizel. Like at all. It's not his fault, but that's how the cookie crumbles.) When once I could essay endlessly on characters, I am now tired of justifying canon's laziness. The novels are a saving grace because at least they allow me to explore some interesting ideas. But their questionable tie-in to canon makes them a feeble hold on my imagination at best.
I guess in the grand scheme of things, my reaction would be significantly tempered without the RP element. But it is damn difficult to have the final form of your character be INFINITELY AND DRASTICALLY different than when you started playing him and having to realize that someone who had incredible zeal for life now is now wracked with self-guilt to the point where self-punishment seems the true answer. I won't even go into the utter selfishness of that. That lovely tidbit from canon still sticks in my craw. Oh there's a selflessness element to, but the offset is still grr-inducing. Bleh, I mostly wish canon would give me just one last thing I can be proud of having attached to the Geass name. I do not have high hopes for the final PD. And I'm still irked as hell that canon forces me to choose between my "love of the story/power of the story" and "DAMMIT I WANT MY LELOUCH IT ISN'T FAIR." You are so not worth my frustration, Geass, you know that. So not worth it. But the characters remain canon's proverbial "I'm sorry. I can change. I won't hit you again" so I just can't file those damn papers, even though I know sooner or later, I'm just going to get another black eye. Worst relationship ever. :\ I have learned nothing from X.
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