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First happiness, through work being an unrelenting bastard, I have conquered one of my greatest fears. Also, PR booted the bitch I hated. So much joy joy joy down in my heart.
Now the unpleasantnesses, the more I hear about Naruto, the more I can't stand it. I haven't been interested in it for a while, and I think Kishimoto has lost all ability to write. Again, this most depresses me because this used to be my obsession series. Now I almost effectively hate all the characters I used to find most interesting. Oh yeah, and SaiGAR spelled Lelouch's name wrong. Have to get that hate in here too. Argh.
On a more serious note, I want to know if I am just a horrible judge of character or whether people act differently around me than they do around each other. Because I'm kind of tired of assuring friends that other people are going to be understanding and decent to them just to have that other person PROVE ME WRONG. I am tired of telling people "No, your friend would never do that to you" just to have that friend PROVE ME WRONG. I'm tired of telling people that others will talk things out with them and come to an agreement just to have that person PROVE ME WRONG. What crucial piece of information am I missing on either side? I've never considered myself an optimist so when I tell people these things about other people, it's because I *truly* believe in them. And people consistently lets me down. Over and over and over again. It's not me that gets hurt. I don't care. I can get by. But if I put such faith in you and you let me down by really hurting someone else when I send them to you, I tend to lose all respect for you. What makes it more confusing for me is that it's mostly an Internet thing. I guess I only get to see one side of a person and should be more neutral when I give advice. Hope for the best but plan for the worst? Contrary to popular belief, I actually don't like "hating/disliking" people; it takes too much effort.
And most importantly, what you hear is not always what you get. Rumor-mongering is the sign of cowardice and unwillingness to go to the source. Spreading it only makes you a bigger fucktard. And if you think this paragraph (not the one above it) is referring to you, you're right. I am in a business that deals with facts and fact-checking; people believing in second-hand information makes me ill.
Now the unpleasantnesses, the more I hear about Naruto, the more I can't stand it. I haven't been interested in it for a while, and I think Kishimoto has lost all ability to write. Again, this most depresses me because this used to be my obsession series. Now I almost effectively hate all the characters I used to find most interesting. Oh yeah, and SaiGAR spelled Lelouch's name wrong. Have to get that hate in here too. Argh.
On a more serious note, I want to know if I am just a horrible judge of character or whether people act differently around me than they do around each other. Because I'm kind of tired of assuring friends that other people are going to be understanding and decent to them just to have that other person PROVE ME WRONG. I am tired of telling people "No, your friend would never do that to you" just to have that friend PROVE ME WRONG. I'm tired of telling people that others will talk things out with them and come to an agreement just to have that person PROVE ME WRONG. What crucial piece of information am I missing on either side? I've never considered myself an optimist so when I tell people these things about other people, it's because I *truly* believe in them. And people consistently lets me down. Over and over and over again. It's not me that gets hurt. I don't care. I can get by. But if I put such faith in you and you let me down by really hurting someone else when I send them to you, I tend to lose all respect for you. What makes it more confusing for me is that it's mostly an Internet thing. I guess I only get to see one side of a person and should be more neutral when I give advice. Hope for the best but plan for the worst? Contrary to popular belief, I actually don't like "hating/disliking" people; it takes too much effort.
And most importantly, what you hear is not always what you get. Rumor-mongering is the sign of cowardice and unwillingness to go to the source. Spreading it only makes you a bigger fucktard. And if you think this paragraph (not the one above it) is referring to you, you're right. I am in a business that deals with facts and fact-checking; people believing in second-hand information makes me ill.
