Memoirs of the Angst-Bitch

Went on an icon hunt to scrap some of my less interesting ones, the ones I made myself. I'm too insanely picky when it comes to the other people's icons, which is why I usually end up making my own since I can't bitch too much about them. AS icons bring on a whole new level of standards (I can't believe they make icons from that ungodly OVA), this being why I only have two that aren't mine. Still looking for a better version of my Alexiel/Kira one. But this one was too hot to resist.

RxJ 12 pissed me off because both Romeo and Juliet are idiots. And I want Mercutio to do something already. I'm really excited about Terra 12 though. I might add my reactions on that one to this post as soon as I finish watching it.

Geass promises us some Milly/Lulu interaction in the fifth drama CD, and the numbering of the track makes us think it might be when they're young. Oh I'm sure she tormented the HELL out of him. So it should be enjoyable for all.

Going through my journal entries from 2005 yesterday was so much fun. I'm such a spaz.


ETA: Just found out I missed out on a chance at the AS drama CD tracks I'm missing in March. I wonder if there's still a chance I can get them. Because hearing Lucifer is a crack dream I'd very much like to realize.

As usual, I'm up too late. I was reading fandomsecrets and hating myself because I couldn't stop and yet they just make me angrier and angrier. So you get quickie Geass rant.

I love my fandom, I do, but why is it so hard for the people who left the fandom to STAY GONE. I don't care why you left. I don't care about your haphazard defense against not being a crazy yaoi fangirl. I don't care if you think Geass is unoriginal or that the promo art sucks. Go bitch on 4chan. Go bitch on your journal. Go bitch on fandomsecrets. Throw yourself a grand ole party. Just get the fuck off my community.

( Also, because I don't think I've properly expressed this in the past and it's 4:35 am, you're just going to have to put up with CFUD gushing. I guess it eventually trails off into my Angel Sanctuary love really. )

2007 Resolutions:
1. WRITE MOAR!! Find some way to manage time or whatever to write again or at least attempt.
2. Take more assertive role in career.
3. Conquer fear of driving to certain places like airports and convention centers.
4. Stop being such a damn chicken when it comes to the Internets.
5. Finish Psychosis. Hah I'm laughing at that too.
Bonus 6. Maybe start Heritage and cosplay some version of Lelouch at an upcoming con.


Still not up for social interaction. A result of semi-sickness and total blindness in one eye. Otherwise I'd be kicking back with CompSci or Dana. Therefore, a random entry is in order.

1. The final volume of Gankutsuou made me cry. Even the hotness of adult!Albert and adult!Lucien couldn't make up for it. I bet Franz would have made an equally hot adult. Gankutsuou is just so sad and perfect.

2. I'm trying to watch DGrayman anime again. I don't know why since if I decide to stick with it, it will be coming out faster than the manga, and I'll have to drop one for fear of spoilers. I think it was the promise that Lavi would be voiced by one of the Hitachin twins. I didn't realize Lavi was the official translation and not just a horrible mistake. That's going to take some getting used to.

3. I want to know if Cantarella is on hiatus and whether it's worth the emotional investment I'm prepared to give it. I love Higuri's artwork, but the stories don't always match up.

4. Yaoi fans should not review Only the Ring Finger Knows. It's not yaoi. It's not meant to be yaoi. It's meant to be cute shonen ai where the guys actually develop feelings for each other and go through your slice of life problems. Yes there's sex but even that's not encompassing. And ugh I hate it when Yuichi is referred to as seme. I don't care if he is, it's just tacky. I'm sad there's only three volumes.

5. I am never again venturing to Angel Sanctuary comms in search of perdy icons. I think I need to reboot my brain after that. For the moment, it's almost entirely teenage Viz readers, which I would normally have no problems with, but when you don't even know who friggin' Cain and Abel are or can't connect the Cain Saga and Godchild...I just don't know what to say to you. Don't get me started on the Lucifer hate and the reasoning that would make clampficrants proud. I just want to gouge out both eyes now.

6. I don't know why I love Her Majesty's Dog. I just do.

7. I noticed some real dicks while I was catching up on my YGO:TAS. Why can't people ever be civil to each other? These are the people who'd probably punch you in the dark and run away laughing.

I have this crazy dream that one day I'll get to wake up, and it won't be because Bro is screaming and cussing his head off. The other day it was about a missing contact, and today it's because he can't get the mud and grass stains out of his clothes and Father won't let him waste any more water washing just a handful of clothes every time. And we were so happy that he finally learned to wash his clothes. Why must he be so obsessive with everything?

Moving along, have I said before how much I love this song? It is my token devotion piece, right up there with "Everything I Do". Insane little me thinks it's fitting for Ty and Nick right before the final battle in Psychosis. The lyrics above are my favorite ones and always choke me up. Of course, they also make me juggle with the concept of "love" that operates around Ty and Nick. It's really hard to explain.

But as we know, the relationship between the prince and his knight has always been my favorite to explore. The basic idea being any time one person shows unusual amounts of loyalty toward another without there being a blood or passionate relationship or even past friendship between the two. Be it an actual knight and prince, servant and his master, fighter and his leader or guardian and his charge. The knight protects his prince simply because he believes in him and because he is his most precious thing regardless of any other relationships the knight may have, passionate or otherwise. Reciprocation from the prince is always more tricky since the prince is usually your classic oblivious hero type. The other usual requirement is that both the knight and prince have someone else they love in the typical sense so their own love remains somewhere in between. I'm almost reluctant to use the same concepts for Ari and San since their love is more tangible and therefore loses the subtleties of my typical knight/prince fix. Note, most of the time I do not ship these pairings; I'm just fascinated by them.

I did not get enough sleep since I stayed up until almost 6 a.m. last night, reading my manga (not a wise choice before sleeping I might add) and just couldn't manage to get back to sleep after waking up around 9:30 a.m. Not REM sleep anyway. I have work tonight so that adds to the feeling of uh oh.

( So let's talk reactions to AS binge last night. )

Also read Godchild 3. Cain and his uncle make me sad. As does Jizabel for some reason.

I need to track down Death Note before work.

I'm trying to find out exactly when Kamui became the identity figure of my journal. I just know I usually go out of my way to use icons with him when replying to people in my own voice and not necessarily fandom issues. I think this calls for more Kamui icons to represent.

I have about 20 minutes before work. Should I play Okami? Probably not. Am I going to do it? The question answers itself.

I'm thinking of possibly making another Kira/Alexiel or Lucifer/Alexiel layout with lyrics from "Anything For You" since I believe I said before that it's one of my big Kira/Alexiel songs. I really should stop putting Kira first though since it's obvious that Alexiel tops everyone and everything. And definitely Rosiel.

Angel Sanctuary breakdown up to Volume 15 is finished.

Sandalphon confuses the hell out of me. I'm also reminded of how I came extremely close to puking all over my manga when I learned Setsuna and Sara's little secret. *still shivering even though this is the second time she read it* Burn it! Burn it!
Ok...I'm calm now. Soon there will be the soothing sound of Tim Gunn's voice and Project Runway antics to chase away these thoughts of ( spoilers now ) Setsuna, I'm going to kill your ass. Hmm, does that mean I'll get Alexiel? No no no bad thoughts bad thoughts. Uh, Raphael sure is pretty when he's a disheveled mess.

I'm going to go track down some Wikipedia now to make sure my ramblings about Sandalphon make any sense at all. I love how I refuse to label any of the levels of Heaven or Hell. They're all one big lump to me. But I did mention Etenameki that one time. Go me.

K, I want translations for Tsubasa 126 and 127 now.

I have several options for my day, after I make another attempt at a practice knitting project I keep fucking up the bind off step.

-Play Xenosaga II
-Finish AS summaries (4 to go)
-Marathon as much of Chrono Crusade as possible
-Download and check out Innocent Venus
-Stop listening to the damn gay "You've Got What I Need" song from the Superman musical (I can't! It's just so terribly gay! Damn you, Buffy!)
-Figure out how to burn Chris Patton's "DUUUUUUUCK!"
-Watch Garo with Tenimyu's Shinji

I think the Evanescence song "Anything For You" fits Kira/Alexiel perfectly. Fuck, I just know that they'll never end up together. *sobs* It and the gay song are currently my most currently played tunes.

EDIT: The knitting project didn't suck. Now all I need is a needle to practice weaving it into the seam. quebelly, what do I need to know to do the knitten?

EDIT 2: As always when I'm home early, everybody else isn't around. Angst emo whine.

Tezuka is Sparky Thornton. The dubbed episode finally gave him enough screen time for me to recognize it. I have mixed reactions on this. It assuages my fears that Tezuka's voice actor can't act since Sparky has shown himself to be capable in characters such as Saitou and sometimes Brandon Heat. But I also dislike the choice of such a soft-spoken guy for the slightly gruff and older-sounding Tezuka. His dialogue slip-ups do give me TezuRyo moments so I can't be too hard on him. I also haven't heard anyone else mention his name lately. I must have missed it. I'm hoping that it was just a case of stupid VA when they pronounced it wrong a few episodes back.

Akira is even more gay in the anime than he is in the manga. His little confession to Hikaru after the first tournament with Haze. I've never seen such loving eyes. Why can't Viz release more HikaGo faster? I'm dying here.

I should get onto to making that dubbed LJ, shouldn't I? First, I'll have to check and see if the idea hasn't already been put into play by someone else with more clout since I know my pimpin' abilities are weak at best. Ah, the trials of being a fairweather fan to all.

EDIT:
Here is my crack: http://community.livejournal.com/theweeklydub/

Please to be giving any suggestions on how to make it better before I go attempting to pimp it.

RETURN OF THE EDIT: Summary's done to Volume 9 now. You know the shit with Jibril and Metatron is also making sense now and I finally get all the Lailah references while Setsuna's in Hades. I'm so lazy in my summary, not bothering to label the various levels of Heaven and Hell. I think I missed out on some Kira angsting the original run too. Poor fellow, he doesn't know what he wants. I love his relationship with Setsuna, especially during the hair scene. When you think of it, it's a love triangle with two parts sharing the same body. Now that's screwed up. I don't envy you, Kira.

I am now buried in Angel Sanctuary manga. I would seriously kill for a plot summary. You know what, I think I'm going to go through all the volumes I have and do one myself. That way, when I get confused as to what went on, I can go back to it and have some semblame of a clue.

This will take forever.

( Angel Sanctuary Breakdown )

Princess Tutu 6 is out. I don't have it. That makes Nayami a very sad panda. Want to see Fakir yell out Ahiru's name. Want to suppress rants that only Fakir knows Ahiru is a duck, and that's what makes it so special. Want to see Fakir write in blood.

Watched Hana Yori Dango live action with quebelly. I enjoyed but am not overly thrilled on the idea of a second season because I fear the relationship getting stale. That series employed almost every cliche known to man. But Domyouji was hot, Rui was a basket case and Makino was just very confused so I didn't mind. I think I enjoy the live action more than I would the anime. I can barely do long shonen animes so long shoujo would kill me.

Bro and Dad are assembling his present so I'm bored. I wanted to watch Escaflowne, but I couldn't find any. Now I'm just in this odd funk thing. Maybe I'll read some more manga. I need more Angel Sanctuary. The last volume just didn't have near enough Kira or Lucifer.