Memoirs of the Angst-Bitch

Drat, I had high hopes for that fic too. Oh well, I have faith it'll shake itself out. Speaking of disappointments, a certain magazine pic of a certain pairing, which I can't describe due to spoilers, was not as pretty as I hoped.

I swear, sometimes my work makes me feel like SNL's IT guy sketch. You know the one where people are trying to explain to him why they are incompetent and broke their computers and he's all "MOVE!" and fixes it in a second. That's me talking to people on the phone or sometimes talking to fellow coworkers still trying to figure out our confusing system.

I got spoiled horribly for the PR episode and will have to watch that after my nap. I still have to watch Black Butler.

I need a dog just so I have an excuse to take walks through my neighborhood without being mindnumbingly bored. I want to check the place out, but I have motivational issues if it's by myself so a dog would help. I think a dog would help me be more active too. The cats are suck for leash activities. But since paying for a dog and keeping it (I don't really want a toy dog) could be tricky right now, I might just have to settle for writing. Like actual writing. Not RPing. That is, if I can even channel my novel characters' personality anymore. It's a good thing I still do my verbal writing in the car everyday.

I think today can be summed up by: Fuck I forgot my checkbook.

Other than that, I did have a good time actually spending my Father's Day with my Dad. I took him out to eat, bought him ridiculously expensive golf clubs and humored his wish to get drunk and hang out with my crazy aunt. Crabs were involved in the latter.

... I need to make a coherent schedule. I will feel better about my life once I do that, I think.

Things to watch this week:

- LOST
- Macross
- Gundam 00

If I even make one of those goals, I will be content. Drat, did I forget to upload my new Lelouch blinking icon.

Oh wait I forgot to comment on Turn 10. orz. Well, there you have it.

Well, apparently I'm going more blind. I suspect it has something to do with my love of Clampesque characters with eye issues. But the eye doctor recommended this weird solution that is peroxide by night and saline solution by day. The only danger is that if you don't leave the contacts in the solution for at least six hours, they might burn your eyes out when you put them back in. IT'S LIKE RUSSIAN ROULETTE FOR YOUR EYES. I'm excited! Are you excited?

I also have mixed views on FukuJun's new anime Spice and Wolf. The main girl's wolf form looks gorgeous but the fanservice and furry are a major turn-off. On the plus side, it can give me an idea on how to structure San's appearance since I like the whole ears and fangs thing. I think the tail is a bit much and much harder to disguise.

Cantarella, you have gotten too depressing for me. That's all I'm going to say on that.

I am such a country dork and love singing "Cleaning This Gun" in the car. Over-protective fathers always amuse me. Almost as much as over-protective siblings. On that note, I think I'm going to use the Knight doujin to make my new layout since it's technically official merchandise, and I think I can inch past my inherit issues with using fanart.

Also, I can icon love. I loves icon love. This reminds me that I want to write up something about my take on holding IC threads for CFUD in player-journals, but I don't want to write it in my character journals. I might do that later. Stay tuned.

I'm such a dork. I was driving home from work and listening to Peter Cetera's "Glory of Love" from The Karate Kid. Then for some reason, my brain suddenly went "OMG Ariel/San." And now I can't take myself seriously. It's probably just Ari's hero complex. They're such reverse master/servant. Probably because San pretends to be such a pushover, except when he's flashing those fangs and saving Ari's ass. Stupid influences and their encouraging me to make my werewolves more gay. I blame Ari.

( Tsubasa manga spoilers of relevance )

TomTom says I can chill at his place this weekend. So much happiness. We're going to rewatch Heroes and be dorks. Then there will be Dr. Who.

I told someone the other day that telling me a series is gay is not enough to make me watch it. This is true. Gay is fangirly and pretty. What I want is a.)psychosis or b.) partnership. If the said gay has either of these elements and in a non-cliched way, then yes you have me SOLD. On this note, I wish I had more time to watch/read new series. I still have to rewatch a certain magical series.

Was half-blind today and feared driving so I did what any half-blind person too sick for work would do. I watched subtitled anime. Subtitled Geass helps me understand a lot more of what was going on in the Lelouch/Cornelia scene (reminds me I have to figure out what I want him to call her since Cornelia is obviously a no-go. damn you britannia and your non-language.) It also helped a lot with the CC/Lelouch scenes and possibly hinted at Lelouch not dying (maybe?) CC is urging him to pursue his dream through defeating his past and his present actions. I will take this as a good sign since it's all I'm going to get. Sadly, Suzaku is clearly being a vicious bitch here and any way Graham and I may have interpreted things in the past doesn't appear to be the case. He wants that boy to suffer.

Also caught up on my Terra e. I now have a much higher opinion of Tony. I can't say the same for the rest of the Blue-type Mu. But I love how even older Tony still calls Jomy "Grandpa" and is quite protective of him. Much different than the movie version. I was ready to bash in Keith's face for a while there, but he sort of redeemed himself in 18. His affection for Sam (and lingering memories of Shiroe) shows he can't be all that bad, even if he is an ass and a half to poor Matsuka. I loved their fight in 16; that was pretty hot. I hope Swena manages to be one of the few women in Terra e that don't suck. I like her; she's bitchy to Keith. I also tip my hat to Murdock for having principles amid battle and defying Keith's orders. Oh and I want to kick Physis. No real reason; I'm just sick of her and her whining. With only about six episodes left, it looks like they're not going to horribly injure Jomy after all. Yays.

All right, in considerable less pain from weeding, somewhat more "here" and completely procrastinating about my work. Also, I think I broke both parts of my laptop that hold up the monitor screen and have no idea how. Rock on.

Going to have to take Operation: Drama CDs to the next level and stop being a chickeny chicken of wussitude.

Caught up on Dr. Who. Have to say, I really dislike 10. Maybe it's because 9 was my first and his jubilant attitude more appealing than spastic and bitter 10. Maybe because 9 and Rose weren't so annoying together. Maybe because 9 wasn't so "I CAN FIX EVERYTHING WITH MY SHEER AWESOME" ALL THE TIME. Maybe it's because 9 is Capt. Jack's real Doctor. For whatever reason, 10 has never grown on me. Oh he has his moments but overall I still miss 9. Also, the only Doctor/Rose moments I could ever stand with 10 were the Season 2 Finale because that was well written. But the PINING in Season 3 makes me want to gut Davies. As for Martha, maybe if she wasn't so instantly smitten, I'd be more tolerant of her, but her sole purpose seems to just show how much the Doctor misses Rose. Well, you know what? I DON'T CARE. Rose is gone. Get over it. Move on. Bring her back. Whatever. That said, Martha and Capt. Jack bonding over how the Doctor will never love them, now that is cute. ( I'm done bitching and just going to talk about Season 3 now )



Ok so maybe in Terra e Jomy and his new friend got off on the wrong foot, but I'm sure they'll be just fine. ( Enter my delusional world here. Not really. )

Also watched some Red Garden and some series about a bodyguard. Red Garden looks interesting but the music is a definite NO. As for the latter, it's interesting but looks a bit slower than my tastes. I might pick it up later on or so.

Recap! I stayed up until 4-ish being an idiot. I regret nothing. Except for the fact that father decided I am the family's cheap tech support and since neither him or my brother will ever get off their lazy asses to learn even the slightest thing about computers, I had to set up my brother's tablet and learning program around 9:30 a.m. Because it HAD to be done by 10 a.m. Needless to say, that didn't happen. Not only is the program about five steps from ass-retarded, but my brother is such a moron on the Internet that he managed to piss off a hacker. So the restart system is stalled and I have to stare at a nice "Fuck you PWNED blah blah blah" message whenever I turn on the computer and on the title bar of every single one of my Internet browsers. The tech support was both English and understandable so I can't complain about her, but the process took almost two hours and it STILL won't let me access the parent site. The best part of this was, in my fury at being summoned with only six hours of sleep, I dragged my brother's lazy summer vacation ass out of bed and told him if I was going to be awake, he was going to be awake. That brat has all day to sleep. Yet he still threw a fit as if he would have to go out and do something after we were done. I'm the one working, punk!

Then I go to work where they decide in addition to my covering part of the job for our recently retired boss, I have about 9 assignments. It's so funny. HAHAHA. It's also not happening. They're going to have to suck it.

Good news? I'm totally excited for the upcoming Geass Drama CD. The CC/Lelouch side-story is a thing of beauty. Nobody owns Lulu's ass like CC. That reminds me, I have to check up on those new Geass fansites I found this morning. I think they're having Suzaku kill Lelouch again. Oh the new Geass 300 trailer is nice in that it features the Knights vs. Britannia, as it should, but there's not enough lip-synch for it to reach true awesome.

In other news, I really need to stop slashing Jomy and Keith when they still haven't even met each other in the anime. I keep wanting to make Dido's "White Flag" lyric keywords for a Jomy icon. I don't even have a Jomy icon since the Terra e fans hate the graphics and I'm too lazy to make my own screencap. Oh wait, I forgot I was trying to come up with a LuluSuza AMV for that song. I am well aware it's wrong. Do I care?

Not sure if going home yet. Hate night driving, and I'm incredibly lazy. Might return in the morning.

Mostly blogging because I finally caught up with Shippuden again. The Itachi/Naruto fight was very well done, and Naruto's seiyuu made it far more emotional than the manga, even with the weird shit that was going on in Itachi's world.

I also started Toward the Terra, which I'm completely obsessed with, even if it is horribly depressing and keeps offing my favorite characters. The art is something I'm not usually attracted to, but it really works in this case. It's an homage to the old anime style, which should be expected from a series based off a 30-year-old manga. I don't really know how I feel about the whole Humans vs. Mu overall storyline, but the characters intrigue me. And then die. But I think I'm safe being interested in the main ones. I prefer Keith over Jomy but only because I can say horrible things about Keith's zen and non-understanding of emotions. Jomy is still very pretty and has his cute gay moments. I do wish the OP didn't trick me into believing certain characters were going to be part of the main plot line and then killing them. Curses! I think I will be following this series from now on, along with RxJ. Darker than Black is still playing back-burner until someone can convince me it's worth my time.

I'll probably be catching up on Shounen Onmyouji soon enough.

I'm going to type actual things here, but I'm having far too much fun going through the Geass kink meme. Gawain/Lancelot is one of the most horrible BEAUTIFUL things ever.

All right, back to your regular schedule. My Memorial Day theme is "Riding with Private Malone" because it's such a clever song. Even if Andy should have kicked the guy's ass for trashing his 66 CORVETTE! ( Lyrics )

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I'm sad that I've run out of Shounen Onmyouji episodes in English and lack translations so I won't get to see any more of Toshi being an adorable fail. Or contemplate how hot a Touda/Suzaku/Seiryuu threesome would be. Hate Akiko slightly less because she didn't get kidnapped this time, and the thing with the peaches was just special. Anyone who knows anywhere I can get anything resembling a summary for episodes 16 and up will earn my eternal gratitude. I want to watch more, but the plot is worth more than just gaping at the pretty moving pictures.

The Geass magazine scans traumatize me in ways that shouldn't be possible. Cheese-kun DOES NOT GO THERE! I admit the one with CC in Zero's cape is mildly hot and will make a fun icon once we get a better scan. Let's not even go into the new figures they'll be releasing. At least Milly's sexy enough to warrant hers.

I feel productive this weekend, being that I marathoned a series, weeded my garden before it rained, went to see Pirates, actually made that call I was supposed to, registered for Otakon, organized my tags on zero_quality so it should be a fully functionally canon archive now and didn't completely fail at RPing. This is a rare feeling for me. I think I might be sick.

Going to pass out. But first must say, Shounen Onmyouji is both awesome and addictive. I can't believe I missed out on this one, splash. It has everything I love most in fiction rolled into one beautiful package.

-Cute snarky creature CHECK
-Adorable but snappy shota main character CHECK
-Insane violence CHECK
-Hot bishis in barely any clothes CHECK
-Heart-breaking character relationships CHECK
-Master/Knight scenario CHECK
-Jun-kun playing a character who gets topped CHECK
-Addictive music CHECK
-Multiple personalities SORT OF CHECK

It's a world of win! This has to be the best thing CFUD has ever nudged me into. Even better than Eyeshield 21.

I just realized there's no way I'm going to be able to tag this title properly so I'm going to use Mokkun instead.