Memoirs of the Angst-Bitch

Dammit Kushina arc. Now I have to catch up on Naruto. Seriously, though, this arc is really reawakening my interest in Kishimoto's storytelling. It's really touching. Initial interest sparked by this breathtaking fanart.

I have also decided that Gabi and I will be torturing ourselves with the hilariously-named The Legend of the Legendary Heroes of Legend (one of those legends may not be part of the actual title.) It makes me think high fantasy meets Geass. Yes, this is entirely based on the main's freaky eye power and his being voiced by FukuJun. Though there looks to be some slash potential and preview hinted at some nice darkness in the storyline. It will probably be fail, but I'm a Geass junkie so anything that can channel it for me earns at least my perusal.

I also want to break 3,000 on this damn Word Bubbles game. If only I didn't keep getting "pap." What the fuck are you supposed to do with pap once you get past the many iterations of "paper." Stupid game.

I have more political spazzery but I'll save that for another post.

I am also attempting some theology world-building for "Psychosis," being that I realized I have no fucking clue where the angels come from, what the magic is or what's the genealogy for half the cast. I also want to work better on Lucian and Tashira's living situation so that it's plausible and possibly better incorporate Lorelei into the story if it can be managed. I'm just running into a few bumps with her connection to Dominic and the threat of losing the important moment where Lucian and Dominic reconcile while Lucian is recovering at her house after a fight.

That means it's onto the meme!

( 30 Days of Writing Meme )

4. Tell us about one of your first stories/characters!

Lol, I just told Graham this story the other day. My first characters were descendants of Chibi-Usa. Yes, from Sailormoon. I don't remember much about them, except that they had their own talking male cat and such. I cared more about their children though. I shamelessly ripped off the Black Lady plot, only with twins. Basically, the girl twin goes nuts and the boy twin has to bring her back. Or was it the other way around? Well, there was a lot more violence and blood. I know the Silver Crystal became some scarily powerful sword. Hmm, I wonder what became of that sword...

Piggy-backing on this was the second part of the story, where the twins each meet up with the opposite sex member of these demon unicorn twins. The demon twins are warring against each other and each trying to win the other twins to their side. I bet anyone who's reading this no longer has any idea what I'm talking about. Anyway, both demon twins die at the end, although they are redeemed and remember that they love each other. D'aww. If this sounds familiar, you've probably guessed why.

Or if you want earlier, there's my Jack London-styled stories about a Samoyed (Sapphire) who has to return home to his owner and enters into a wolf pack, a boy and his pet tiger (Hunter) and some stray dog (Rogue) who owns his own city pack. As guessed from the reference, none of these animals talked. I wish I could remember more about them than just the basics. I bet I still have the story maps lying in my closet somewhere. I never throw anything away. Oh and waaaay back, there was the "Incredible Journey" rip-off about two dogs and a cheetah.

First happiness, through work being an unrelenting bastard, I have conquered one of my greatest fears. Also, PR booted the bitch I hated. So much joy joy joy down in my heart.

Now the unpleasantnesses, the more I hear about Naruto, the more I can't stand it. I haven't been interested in it for a while, and I think Kishimoto has lost all ability to write. Again, this most depresses me because this used to be my obsession series. Now I almost effectively hate all the characters I used to find most interesting. Oh yeah, and SaiGAR spelled Lelouch's name wrong. Have to get that hate in here too. Argh.

On a more serious note, I want to know if I am just a horrible judge of character or whether people act differently around me than they do around each other. Because I'm kind of tired of assuring friends that other people are going to be understanding and decent to them just to have that other person PROVE ME WRONG. I am tired of telling people "No, your friend would never do that to you" just to have that friend PROVE ME WRONG. I'm tired of telling people that others will talk things out with them and come to an agreement just to have that person PROVE ME WRONG. What crucial piece of information am I missing on either side? I've never considered myself an optimist so when I tell people these things about other people, it's because I *truly* believe in them. And people consistently lets me down. Over and over and over again. It's not me that gets hurt. I don't care. I can get by. But if I put such faith in you and you let me down by really hurting someone else when I send them to you, I tend to lose all respect for you. What makes it more confusing for me is that it's mostly an Internet thing. I guess I only get to see one side of a person and should be more neutral when I give advice. Hope for the best but plan for the worst? Contrary to popular belief, I actually don't like "hating/disliking" people; it takes too much effort.

And most importantly, what you hear is not always what you get. Rumor-mongering is the sign of cowardice and unwillingness to go to the source. Spreading it only makes you a bigger fucktard. And if you think this paragraph (not the one above it) is referring to you, you're right. I am in a business that deals with facts and fact-checking; people believing in second-hand information makes me ill.

Note to SasuNaru fanwriters: Sasuke is not a raven, and Naruto is not a fox. Analogies suck ass when you use them so flippantly. and i will cry over the fact that every time i try to write sasuke i inevitably write suzaku and then have to redo it. it scares me

I am going to see Tom tomorrow this makes me happy. Also PR premiered and also made me happy. The hideous bitch with the homicidal hair irks me in the not good way.

I should upload my Geass mood theme I dled a long time ago, but I hate using PhotoBucket for such things, and I have to reset up my ftp server. But I do want to do it soon because I think I'm all but done with Naruto. It hurts me to the point where I don't care. I admit it. I don't care about anyone else besides Naruto and Sasuke, and I don't like what either have been doing lately. I miss my Naruto. ;; Plus, Geass gives me canon pics of Suzaku being non-conned by candy. How can I refuse?

I'm going to watch Gundam and then possibly log about that and Avatar 3. My interest in Gundam is currently one of interest and not OMG GUNDAM because aside from Wing, I have never been as hardcore in love with Gundam as I am with Geass. I enjoy it, but I also tend to drift in and out of interest with it. Politics get to me after a while. But Big Gay Setsuna's Big Gay Gundam is a bit hard to resist.

ETA: Yes bitches, I finally fixed my ftp after like three hours! Because the stupid system wouldn't tell me what to enter in as a local host and retarded me couldn't just go PUT IN CHAOTICDREAM.NU YOU MORON. Anyway, I'm going to fix my mood theme now.

Dammit I'm so friggin' pissed right now. I am using my desk as a computer desk. This is not supposed to be. My wrists hate the way the edge of the computer digs into them. Sasuke-neko is plotting how to take out the three stacks of manga I was forced to move to another counter so I could fit my computer on the desk. The other stack of manga threatens to fall over and smash my hands. Yeah I need to clean my room ok? I'm not used to using a laptop in the sane, conventional way. And the light reflecting from my light fixture is bouncing off the screen and hurting my eyes. I officially hate using the computer right now.

Onto other topics, I caught up on Yugioh:TAS. The movie had some great lines, particularly with Pegasus flirting with Kaiba, Anzu trying to sex up Yuugi and Kaiba trying not to look at the naked Anubis. The newer episodes are also fun. Who doesn't love Otogi being sexy? I admit I looked up that name and only know him as Duke Devlin, but I wanted to be cool. I love his theme music in TAS. He is entirely too pretty to exist on Yugioh. It is why he could only stay for a handful of episodes at a time. I was sad he never got to meet Kaiba. Oh and Safty was marvelously creepy as Rebecca and her demonic teddy bear.

Also tortured myself with Naruto: Abridged don't know why. I don't mind if a fan hates yaoi. Up to them really. But do they have to continuously bash it? I have no point of comparison since yaoi fans very rarely make parodies so I can't say whether or not they bash het pairings. But knowing fangirls, I suppose it's highly likely.

ETA: Oh yeah, I do have one more complaint. At this angle, I'm going to have to close my door since passersby can see any of the horrible pron I may be looking at/reading.

Not sure if going home yet. Hate night driving, and I'm incredibly lazy. Might return in the morning.

Mostly blogging because I finally caught up with Shippuden again. The Itachi/Naruto fight was very well done, and Naruto's seiyuu made it far more emotional than the manga, even with the weird shit that was going on in Itachi's world.

I also started Toward the Terra, which I'm completely obsessed with, even if it is horribly depressing and keeps offing my favorite characters. The art is something I'm not usually attracted to, but it really works in this case. It's an homage to the old anime style, which should be expected from a series based off a 30-year-old manga. I don't really know how I feel about the whole Humans vs. Mu overall storyline, but the characters intrigue me. And then die. But I think I'm safe being interested in the main ones. I prefer Keith over Jomy but only because I can say horrible things about Keith's zen and non-understanding of emotions. Jomy is still very pretty and has his cute gay moments. I do wish the OP didn't trick me into believing certain characters were going to be part of the main plot line and then killing them. Curses! I think I will be following this series from now on, along with RxJ. Darker than Black is still playing back-burner until someone can convince me it's worth my time.

I'll probably be catching up on Shounen Onmyouji soon enough.

... Sasuke, why are you talking to the kitty cats? And since when are you buddy-buddies with the furries? And how much more are you going to rip off your brother?

KISHI, WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU TAKING??

Writing that thing I mentioned in the f-locked post. It's going ok.

New Geass official art amuses me. I love how the magazines refuse to acknowledge that Lelouch and Suzaku are going to be trying to *kill* each other soon. But I'm a sucker for LuluSuza so I'm eating it up. I think it creates a nice balance with the cracky wedding pic. If you're going to give me my crack het and my crack slash at the same time, I've got no complaints. I need to make new icons using the uber-cute Lelouch chibis in Pash. ( I'm very intrigued by what the directors have to say about the LuluSuza relationship. )

chuunin baleted the dub fight yesterday, and for good reason since it was getting wanky. I still feel that my statement was worth while and will therefore repeat it here. There is no point to Naruto dub hate. The editors have continuously shown desire to go out of their way to accommodate to fans in terms of storyline, editing and even the OPs. They are allowing everything they possibly can and considerably more than most Toonami shows originally allowed. Many fans were already anxious to hate on the dub from it's announcement. If they say otherwise, they are lying. I remember the Viz bitching. Fans who dislike the dub for existing should just forget about it entirely and go along their way. I find the dub a fair accompaniment to the anime and will continue to enjoy it. More so that I can have amusing thoughts about Crispin Freeman and Yuri Lowenthal ever attending the same convention. Freeman is the perfect Itachi! Delicious. Like the GameFAQs people, I do believe Lowenthal would make a fine Lelouch should Bandai ever rip Geass from my rending claws with the power of LICENSING.

I am much calmer than my last post now. For starters, I am away from my family. I'm referring to my non-immediate family such as aunts/cousins/grandparents and the like. Maybe you have guessed that I do not like my family. Or rather they do not like me. We are on a completely opposite spectrum in all walks of life from my politics to my preferences to my social life. So each of our get-togethers is the equivalent of the Spanish Inquisition and always ends up with me getting the worst of it. I wish they would just disown me and be done with it.

I enjoyed the other side of the coin I got from people who enjoyed Casino Royale. Your sane responses helped temper my fury and while I still do not like the movie and still believe the plot was much in the realm of ridiculous and occasionally nonexistent, I will stop declaring my undying hatred for it. I have not read the book so my bond knowledge is based solely on the movies, which I watched with my father when I was growing up. You might say I'm tainted by his opinion as well.

I heard that in the newest Naruto chapter, Sasuke once again proves his asexuality. That lifts my spirits, but I remain disappointed in the series. It shocks me how I can have this much "bleh" toward a series that is focusing on my favorite character in anime (lulu remains second). I'm too dependent on little things like oh plot and sanity and figuring out what the hell is going on with NARUTO.

Saw some KH2 and CoM stuffs from Final Mix. I admit I spent a good portion of the first floors, begging for Axel to show up and kill someone because I got sick of listening to the happy Sora gang chat it up. The Org bosses for KH2 terrify me, especially Marluxia with his death bad-touching of Sora. But that scythe reaction command MMMMM. I don't care about the Secret Ending. It means nothing to me until I hear about KH3.

The latest set of Geass spoilers make Nayami a sad kitty, mostly because nothing in them seems to be of any potential. Also, my own personal hypocritical issue. *sniffles* Well, maybe the Nina thing will be interesting. Everything else is just a bunch of stuff that I didn't want to happen. Some of it I can accept; others... I'll have to wait and see how things play out, but something tells me I might be a bit riled during the final arc. Oh Geass, how you hurt me.

I read the Naruto chapter. Translations eased the pain that series has been putting me through just a touch. I enjoy Sasuke and his new naked friend's snarking. I've also decided that because I never spell the guy's name right, I shall now refer to Sasuke's new naked friend as such, even though he now has clothes. Ugly clothes. You need to find your harem some better threads, Sasuke. Again, I still believe Kishimoto has no idea what he's doing, but as long as he avoids fights and deus ex machine, he might be able to work on character development long enough to figure out where he wants his story to go. Maybe he'll even hit about how to connect it to Naruto. There's an idea.

Geass fanart folder now at about 1200. I tried checking out some Western fanart last night, but after weeks of shuffling through the Japanese sites, I was left unimpressed. The one thing I do like about the American fanarts, even if I prefer the Japanese art style, is the Americans like to play with fashion. I think it's more of a trend toward AU than anything, but it keeps things different. I really need to stop reading the fanart of Suzaku killing Zero!Lelouch and then trying to unsuccessfully to kill himself. So sad yet so well done.

I also finally saw the "Candy Mountain" video so that joke makes sense to me. It's only been about two years. I'm slow. -_-

I have to travel out and about for work today so I doubt I'll be returning home.